I'm Jumbled and Confused

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 18:12:49 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LINDSEY!!!!!

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 02:37:50 GMT

So it's Christmas!!! Mine has been ok, it's weird though because so many of our traditions have changed since it's my first year with a step-dad. But oh well at least I'm not starving in Africa. I got some good stuff, clothes and perfumes that I love! And I got a cherry belly button ring it's very cute, and I got gift cards to the mall and forever 21 so I'm pretty excited about that. From my friends I got some good stuff, a watch and earrings from Ash M. (thanks ash!) a pillow with a picture of me and manda on it from homecoming from Amanda of course, and this really cool pillow blanket thing from mal, and the most awesome coloring books from james, 4 that are just normal kid ones but then I got one with pictures of gangster rappers in it! Its way cool!! But yea thats what I got, I'm satisfied, but now I have nothing to do, my mom and step-dad went to his family dinner and so it's just me and my siblings at the house...I think we are going to a movie though..Merry Christmas everyone!!!

It's just a shimmy and a shake

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 02:22:34 GMT

Oh man break is soooooo soon, I am so completely excited! I get to go to my dads and see him and my step mom and my dogs and animals that I NEVER see. I haven't been to my dads since April! He lives in Portland so it's hard to have time to go. So I'm pretty happy about that. Plus no offence to anyone but I need to get away from everyone and just not deal withe people for a bit which doesn't mean I'm mad at anyone or annoyed I just need a break from Bothell, and everything in it. Anyways, I went to the mall today and visited some people which was awesome, and bought some shoes for myself and things for other people. Anyways.... that was my simple day, boring but not horrible like my days have been usually...trying to make it as not akward as possible haha

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 17:02:18 GMT

Plans didn't fall through last night...stupid work. But before work Shay came over because she wanted to visit and I was sad because I go to all of the battle of the bands with her and I wasn't able to go so I made plans to go to Betsy's with mal and manda to make ginger bread houses. Then shay took me to work

Work was slow so I was cut after 2 hours...made 29 bucks (horrible) so I went home until Manda needed me to pick her up because she was still working, I decided to go to the Battle of the Bands and see people even though I was late. It was fun to see everyone. Then as I'm driving home I call Betsy to see it our plans were still happening but she says it's kinda too late and Mal and Tillie decided to go to poker night instead. SO I went back to Ruby's to get manda and told her and we felt kinda like we got ditched. So I decided to call james because I told him if plans didn't work out I'd call, and he was with Mal, Tillie, and Mir and Mal said that Betsy told them she couldn't have people over, so I have no clue what the truth it, but it doesn't really matter anymore. Me and Amanda decided to just go to Applebee's and eat, and I didn't meet up with Mal, Til, Mir, and James. It was late and we only had like an hour to be out and Amanda was starving so it seemed to make sense.

Today hopefully will work out and be fun, I work 12-8 (it sucks but it better make up for the crappy 30 bucks I made last night) but after work I'm supposed to call nima and figure something out so that should be fun. But we'll see what happens.

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 05:33:42 GMT

Highschool can be so meaningless can't it? I mean right now, it seems like your whole world, but really how many of the people that you know now, will you know 10 years from now? I'll probably keep in touch with 3 people 5 max if I'm lucky. It's funny though because people care so much about the latest gossip about who cheated on who, or who has a crush on you, or better yet who you're crushing on, when most likely there is no true future between many of the couples at school, I mean come on we are teenagers, we have only lived like one fifth of our life so far....Oh well I don't mean to be sad, and say you people don't matter, but it's just sad that I'm sure I won't know you all after highschool, as much as I want to, it would be hard to overcome...anyways I guess I was just thinking about how highschool is such a minor in life, but seems like a major at the moment...

"smile like you mean it"

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 04:27:07 GMT

I hate the days when everything just gets on your nerves and people use you for things and make you feel like crap...Today was one of those days and there were about 5 total people if not less that didn't make my day suck (shay you are one of those people) I just want to stay home for like a week, it's a good thing break is coming up, because I need a break from everyone at school...

"love is just a game"

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 23:01:08 GMT

I saved 3 lives today.....got out of four classes.....didn't have to work....yet today has been an unfulfilling day...

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 05:36:06 GMT

So I'm extremely bored and nothing exciting has gone on lately so I decided to do this, I'm sure no one will have the patience to read it all but what the hey...

Firsts

First best friend: Amanda Merrill
First car: I have no clue but I should find out soon
First real kiss: meaningless now
First screen name: TommmyBabe or some crap like that
First self purchased album: haha chumbawamba
First funeral: A guy I didn't even know, that was taking place at my church when I happened to be there, it was way sad I cried
First piercing/tattoo: umm when I was like 7 in my ears?
First pets: hmmm dog named Toby...I've had many since
First true love: Scotty Morgan! haha
First enemy: hmm...I don't really remember, I forget her name but she was extremely mean in the first grade.

Lasts

Last car ride: by myself..listening to Jamie Cullum
Last good cry: about a week or so ago, talking to my dad on the phone, about everything
Last movie seen on TV: Shallow Hal
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: Cookie Dough haha
Last crush: I have many
Last phone call: Shay
Last time showered: and hour ago
Last shoes worn: painful boots
Last CD played: Jamie Cullum
Last annoyance: umm....my brother playing guitar really loud?
Last disappointment: Not being able to find gifts for people...and other stuff
Last time wanting to die: haha um probably my moms wedding?
Last shirt worn: miller brewing company t-shirt? It's a night shirt
Last website visited: autotrader.com
Last song you sang: High and Dry-Jamie Cullum/Radiohead

Whats

What is in your cd player?:haha Jamie Cullum
What color of underwear are you wearing?: blue and yellow striped haha
What's under your bed?: packed away junk from moving
What time did you wake up today?: 5:30-6 I kinda sit it bed for at least 20 minutes

Future

Where do you want to go?: New York
What is your career going to be?: no idea! So many things that aren't related...something that pays good and that I enjoy and I have yet to find out
Where are you going to live?: New York but I'll probably get homesick and come back
How many kids do you want?: 3-4
What kind of car(s): umm...I dunno doesn't really matter but I will never have a soccer mom van...I'll have an suv or something
Name of first born son(s): Hayden
Name of first born daughter(s): no idea zoey or something

Currents

Current Mood: tired/bored
Current music: none
Current taste: cookie dough
Current hair: wet from the shower
Current longing: umm...there are lots
Current desktop picture: my sister and I on homecoming
Current favorite artist: hmm...I don't have just one, it's givin that I'm into Jamie Cullum, and of course I still love death cab
Current book(s): go ask alice
Current color of toenails: pink
Current time-wasting wish: hmm..I don't think anything I'd do would be a waste
Current hate: um... school probably
[1- What's your name] Lindsey
[2- Who do you love more than anyone] God duh, but if we are talking people, my family.
[3- Who do you hate more than anyone] I try not to hate anyone, but I dislike people who are mean
[4- Do you like small or big cars] for myself? small
[5- Do you go to the toilet, loo, bog or bathroom? bathroom...haha
[6- If you don't wash do you feel dirty]yea I hate that feeling
[7- Do you clean your teeth everyday]of course who doesn't
[8- Do you like people because they are fun or because they understand you]. both, there are times for fun and times for understanding.
[9- Is the world round or flat] round
[10- Do people underestimate children] yea I guess
[11- Are teenagers great] we are brats and selfobsorbed but most of us will grow out of it
[12- Is being rebellious good] um...sometimes
[14- Is fox hunting bad? yea it's mean
[15- Do you have a secret] yes a million
[15- Is it bad] some
[16- Can you tell it] that wouldn't be a secret now would it?
[17- Go on then] .....
[18- Do you like keeping things clean] umm...I don't like to clean but I hate it when things aren't...if that makes sense
[19- Would you ever take drugs] again? not planning on it

[20- Do you surf the web a lot] not really
[21- Do you consider yourself popular] I don't think anyone is popular, everyone has friends.
[22- Name your best friend] both Shay and Amanda ultimately
[23- Can you tell him/her anything]yes
[24- Can you really trust anyone]not anyone, yea right
[25- Is school okay really] no school sucks
[26- Is society important] I suppose
[27- Are rules made to be broken] some
[28- Does God exist] yes of course
[29- Do people worry too much] yes.
[30- Should you be afraid of death] No but don't ignore it, because it happens no matter what
[31- Do you like riding in your car with the windows open] yes.
[32- Do your parents annoy you] yea sometimes, and I'm sure i annoy them
[33- Do you think Eminem is an idiot] I guess not
[34- Can Britney sing] of course not
[35- Is Madonna full of herself] nah, maybe in her earlier years
[36- Do you even care about those people anyway]not a whole lot
[37- Is fame real] umm...I think it's just society that leads it on, because "famous" people are just people
[38- Would you ever marry anyone younger] not way younger, but if I loved them it shouldn't matter
[39- Do you always wash your hands after going to the bathroom] Yea thats so gross when people don't
[40- Are first impressions important] yea
[41- Can you make snap judgements and are they nearly always right]not really there are so many people I thought would be a certain way and were far from it
[42- If a girl sleeps around is she slutty] umm...depends i guess
[43- If a boy sleeps around is he great] no but guys seem to think so
[44- Why are we all trapped in society] I wouldn't know
[45- Why do we do what people tell us] Because not many people have minds of there own and worry about what others think, I can be guilty of that too
[46- Would you rather eat fast food or something healthy] healthy but fast food is easier to get to
[47- Are grandparents important] of course they are
[48- What means the most, friends or family] family because they are always there, sad to say it but friends can drift but you can't get away from your family
[49- Are sports fun or too hard work] I don't play sports but I would assume fun
[50- Is image important] thats what everyone is taught
[51- Would you like a good job] yep
[52- Do teachers have lives] yea
[54- Can boys and girls ever be proper friends] yes
[55- Do boys think about sex far too much] yea probably....
[56- Are pretty people annoying] some
[57- Don't you just hate it when a really thin person complains about being fat all the time?] haha yea, and I'm guilty of that to, (not that I"m thin but I"m not obese but girls are selfconsious I can't help it if I have a different image in my head)
[56- Are anorexics really ill or are they just being silly] they are ill.
[57- Are animals people, too] they aren't people, but they should be treated good
[58- Would you ever call someone a racist name] no thats mean
60- Do you like sunny days or rainy days best] sunny but sometimes rainy days are nice, not gloomy days
[61- Do you like spring or fall best] Fall
[62- Do you sing in the shower] haha YES
[63- Do you use a hairdryer or towel dry] towel dry then hairdryer
[64- Do you wear clothes 3 days running?] no eww
[65- Do you talk to yourself] umm..probably and I don't know it
[66- When you get mad do you shout or bottle it up] bottle up then explode
[67- When you're depressed do you pretend to be okay] yea sometimes but people see through me...well the people who know me well do
[68- Do you drink wine, beer or alcopops]I have drank beer and wine but I don't "drink" them
[69- Do you drink orange juice or cola] both
[70- Did you enjoy this survey] umm..it kept me busy for awhile

"I was made for lovin you baby you were made for lovin me"

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 03:52:43 GMT

So today was great. School was lame of course, but we did start pinata stuff in spanish I'm so excited! But after school, I went home with shay! We can always have fun, just hangin around. We talked about stuff, didn't have resolutions because I'm not too good with the whole thing haha, but it's ok. We listened to Moulin Rouge music....so great, we sang at the top of our lungs. We also watched some stuff on ebaumsworld.com they were gross haha eww. Anyways I'm really mad now though because I did this whole MacBeth project and then I realized I picked the wrong quote to do it on, I chose one from act 4 when I was supposed to find one from act 5, but it's so good so I'm turning it in anways!!

I LOVE....
Shay
Saundra
BREANA CRIST!!!!!
and everyone else but I felt the need to name those 3

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 21:18:40 GMT

So TPing definately doesn't work with 20 people....tried it, and it failed and it was really dumb. But before that, my whole day yesterday was so long. My sister and I woke up extra early to go to the 6 hour sale at Fred Meyers haha it was great, then I had to take her to work but we ate at ruby's first. Then I went home to shower and all that because I had to work. It was a really lame day for work to because I worked 2 hours and only made like 45 dollars in tips. Then when amanda and I got off work, we went to Target to look around, then we went home to change and went to Bradon DeBerry's to meet up with bradon, robbie, sam, and mallory. Then I left to go to Josies for a bit because Randi and Joe were there and other kids were supposed to be there but ditched us all. So I hung out there for awhile, had nice talks with Josie, then went back to Brandons, to hang out but Mal and Sam had left, so it was just robbie, brandon, manda and I remembering the good old times at Maywood. Then eventually Amanda and I left to go meet up with people to go TPing and it turned out to be completely stupid haha.

Anyways, that was just yesterday...I had a great thanksgiving, I have yet to hang out with Shay, I feel like I never see her or hang out with her, I love her to death, and I feel like a crappy friend because we have spent so much time apart! Anyways, I hope we can still go to a lazer show tonight! James is on his way to pick me up, I don't know what we'll do, but I still plan on seeing Shay tonight if she hasn't made plans, and if she has, I'm gonna crash their party ahaha

Turkey day is so soon!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 04:58:58 GMT

So this weekend/week has been ok. I definately worked a ton...didn't do much else, except on friday night after work I called Nima back and him and a bunch of people were at top foods so I just walked over there to say hi, but thats about the only thing besides work that I did besides homework.

This week has been pretty stupid too, Monday was horrible, I was just on one of those moods where every little thing hurts your feelings or pisses you off but whatever. Today was a tad bit better, my dad was here which was awesome, we've been looking at auto trader to look for a car for me! I'm so excited to get a car and on top of that my dad bought me a piano, granted I quit lessons, but I still intend to play and go through my books. He's bringing it on Saturday I think. Oh man I'm so happy I don't have to work on Saturday! I feel like I have tons of plans, but the only thing I can think that I'm supposed to do, is hang out with james (but he might ditch me) and go to a lazer show with shay and people (I really really really hope that works out because shay and I have been urging to go for so long!) Anyways that's my week so far, now I'm just waiting with anticipation for Thanksgiving! Oh yea and I've already been listening to Christmas music, I recommend everyone else starts to as well!

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 08:10:03 GMT

I hate feeling like I'm just the flavor of the week...I'm more than that don't you think??

One too many times...

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 05:19:08 GMT

I cannot tell you how many freakin times I've been to the children's hospital it's insane...Manda's little brother had emergency brain surgery again..he's ok but it's still really scary he's only 3 years old. So we went to see him, and Mallory met us there. It was nice but all these other people showed up and inturrupted the "family" haha. So then Me, Mal, and Manda went to Dicks then home...that took so little to say but it really felt like a long day

It's about time...

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 03:38:32 GMT

Ahh wonderful finally I got to hang out with Saundra. For the beginning of the day I just lounged around went to TJMaxx and Target, then just came home. Then Shay and I drove over to Saundra's. We talked about stuff we usually do, caught up on boy's and old "friends" (not! haha) I tried to learn how to crochet again...I got frustrated I'm more of a knitter. We had pizza visited with her mom, and then I drew a picture of Saundra haha. It kinda looked like her, more than I expected actually, but it was no phenomenon or anything...and now I'm home...it's so early but I have absolutely nothing to do...oh well..maybe homework? Nah...

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 23:30:08 GMT

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Sat, 13 Nov 2004 09:18:43 GMT

So today was pretty good...pretty much just lounged around for the beginnning of the day. I watched Lost In Translation it was a good movie and makes you think (well it made me think). Then I worked of course. It was a much more pleasant day, because finally James came in, he had said for like a month he would come in and never did so it was nice to have a visitor because I rarely get them.

Then after work Manda and I decided to hang out, and didn't have anything to do so we went to Erik's where a couple of guys were, and it was pretty funny because they all made us laugh alot and we realized we all went to Maywood...it was quite the reunion....anyways I hope the rest of the weekend gets better and I hope I do more fun things because I don't want to waste a 4 day weekend on boringness.....

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 08:27:09 GMT

Saw the Grudge tonight....really weird and confusing movie..haha but it was funny I guess...besides that I worked ( I am officially a server now!! ) woo hoo.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 22:30:58 GMT

Ok I didn't have anything to say in this entry so I thought I'd be like everyone else and see what people fill in for me....yea anyways fill it out if you have time or want to
But you're still my friend if you don't :)

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?

Whats my deal?

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 05:57:31 GMT

So nothing has really been going bad I guess..but I've really noticed that the smallest things can change the mood I'm in. Whether is a person or event, I could be having the best time and then someone's comment to me or the way they are feeling about me or anything of that sort will just give my mood a complete 180 turn around and I can't help it. I try not to let things bother me, but people can tell when something is wrong with me so it's not like i can hide it...but it's also the same thing but the other way around, the slightest thing can make my day when I feel like crap, and thats the great part of all of this but still I think those situations are more rare than the other. So I don't know, maybe I'm just too sensative or take things to seriously, or if people mean things when they say them, or if there is something wrong with me and the way I am to make people feel a certain way about me? It beats me but I guess I'm just noticing these things about myself...whatever

I had a great time tonight though, hung out with shay, we went to Gallo de Oro the mexican restaurant on main street. I swear I've been there at least 5 times with her family. It's always fun, something halarious always happens and we remember each one. Besides that we really didn't do much but it was still fun...I've missed the fam!!

aww that was great!

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 03:06:50 GMT

It was great! Saundra called me and I have not spoken to her or heard her voice in THE longest time! I'm glad shes doing good at Snohomish, I want her to come back though, but once I get a car I will be able to see her more often and we can go to the Lyon's Den and Bothell Landing like the good old times with Shay and Bre! Man I miss last year. This year is so dang different! But oh well what do you do? You can't bring back the past it would just never work out. Anyways...the new area of the mall opened up it is awesome! I went to visit Tessa and Amber at Coldstone it was very chaotic (and I think your right james they might not last that much longer there) But yea thats bee my day nothing great I guess!

I'm home!!!

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 03:21:28 GMT

I am finally home from Pullman! It was really fun! The drive was super long and I had to drive part of the way so I didn't get to relax the whole time. It was dad's weekend at WSU so there were tons of parties going on when we got there. My sister had an "exchange" some sirority and frat thing. So we went to this live in frat and all the dads and kids were there drinking and stuff. Then my sister took me to like 5 frats and inroduced me to all her friends and it was funny because alot of the people went to Bothell so I knew them and alot of them had little brothers and sisters that go to bothell. And then the next day we went to a movie, and went to see drew carey and all the guys from whose line is it anyway, and it was soooo funny I loved it, that was like my dream to go see those guys haha. Anyways besides that we just hung out walked around alot and bought stuff, went to see my cousin in Moscow and drove home today (I also drove a chunk of the way) And now I am home and really happy because I thought I had a ton of hw but I don't! yes! So I'm gonna go shower and probably make a few phone calls! I MISSED EVERYONE!!! and was sad I had to miss gaby's party and everything. But oh well.

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 03:17:26 GMT

Awesome day....I went to shays house and I have not been there in sooooooooo long!! But it was so fun. We went to QFC because we wanted those cookie dough tubes u buy and slice them because they have a fun picture on them, and there were none! So she was gonna buy the break and bake ones but they were like 4 bucks it's was crazy. So then we went to Wendy's (bad bad bad idea, I really wanted McDonalds) and I ordered cheesebugers and fries and a coke and let me say the coke was the only thing worth the money...they have THE sickest burgers I have ever had... it was a waste of 4 dollars I was pissed. But then we went back to shays and made hemp neckelaces which was fun I really like mine, and we listened to old mixes from jr. high and we talked about how it's sad we can never go back to how it was...:(. Oh well, but anyways then I went to target because i forgot to borrow a red jacket from shay because I am being FORCED to wear my ruby's uniform to school tomarrow for a fun raiser for the school choir...and I don't have a warm jacket that matches so I went out to buy a red cheap fleece thing that is a medium so it's kinda big but whatever it will be warm.

I will be with my sister in less than 24 hours she just pointed out to me haha. I'm pretty pumped, but it will be kinda sad because it's holloween weekend and I won't be around to hang out with certain people and go to gaby's and all that fun stuff...but oh well maybe a few lucky of you will get a phone call from me this weekend! I know EVERYONE wants one...but anyways I'm off!

p.s. I will never again in public say I am "fat"

Why does it feel like Friday???

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 00:43:10 GMT

I swear everyday this week feels like friday..no idea why but it does. I guess I'm just going to talk about random things because I really don't have anything in particular to say.....there's an elipse tonight so that will be neat I guess...how often do they come? Not often I don't think, so I can't miss it. I'm pretty excited to go see my sister, I think we are gonna go to a corn maze or haunted house so it'll be fun. She's also going to take me to some fraternity parties, which will be interesting to see what they are like. I wonder if they are anything like the movies are, like animal house haha. It'll also be cool because some of my sister's friends go there so I get to see them which will be fun. Next time I go there I want to bring a ton of my friends I think that'd be way fun. I hope I'm able to go see me dad soon, it's been so long since I went to his house, I haven't been there since spring break, I didn't once go see him last summer because my stupid job never lets me get days off it's horrible...anyways I'm pretty boring, but I had nothing else to do..

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 02:32:19 GMT

So this weekend was pretty fun. I went to the game on friday we definatly kicked woodnevilles butts! Once again I went with amanda mal and the girls which is always fun, getting ready and all that. Then we went to Jack in the Box as usual and then I went home because of course i had to work early the next morning. I wish I didn't have to because I either wanted to go the the grudge with james and whoever else he went with or to spend the night with amanda she wasn't having a too good of night and I felt bad. But anyways I worked Sat morning then that night me shay melissa ashley and jenelle went to the Kube 93 haunted house it was definately scary but soooooooooooo fun (besides me getting rammed into the walls and other people) Once all of us got there we were like "why the heck did we not bring a carload of boys for each of us to have a designated protecter" haha but me and shay held onto eachother so it was all good thats all I needed. But yea it was super fun then we all went to McDonald's then to Melissas to just hang out then home because of course ihad to work early on sunday..haha. Anyways so I worked today then went to Michaels to get stuff for school and since then I've been doing homework so thats about it I suppose...next weekend will be awesome too WZU here I come.

Just another Thursday

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 01:49:21 GMT

I haven't been up to much lately, mainly school then coming home to do homework or work. But today after school I went to Tillies to give her her Birthday gift, it was not a great gift but I think she liked it. Then I went out to dinner with Betsy which was nice, of course we went to Ruby's and since a cool manager was working I got 50% off. Bad news though, I'm pretty sure he's quitting and he's the only reason I'm sticking around, so it looks like I'm gonna be needing to find a new job. But anyways, me and betsy had a good talk about things that are going on now and friends and what not so it was nice. Now I am home because I decided not to go to the one act plays at school or the college thingy, so I'll just be sitting around.

P.S. I got work off tomarrow so I can actually go to the game!!! yessss....don't be mad james I <3 u!!!